my ultimate goal is to be at peace with myself, eliminate toxic feelings and elements and energies from my life, unlearn negative and harmful practices and thought patterns, stop checking for people that don’t check for me, create a space for myself that is nurturing for growth so that i may generate loving energy for myself and for others, nourish my spirit and balance my energies, i have big dreams and i deserve to live a life i love and let that love radiate
do i have a crush on you or am i just lonely
do i like you or do i like that you like medo I like you or do I like the idea of you
do i want to be in a relationship or do i just want to prove that i’m worthy of one
Hold their hand and then never touch their skin again,
See them nearly everyday and pretend they don’t exist,
Act like everything you ever said to them was a lie.
Hooking up with him was NOT worth loosing someone that cares about you or you care about. I guess I made a mistake.. but I’m only human. I’m gonna make mistakes and going to learn from them. It was an impulsive decision. I was angry and I felt like if she isn’t going to care then why should I? If I mean that little to her that she can just smoke another cigarette then I should let go and hurt her back. It wasn’t worth it though. Now, there is absolutely nothing I can do or say. I messed up. I dented my character. I just need to move on and stop contacting her bc nothing is gonna work anyway. Now, I just know not to do it to the next person.